Can i wait 5 more years

I think I’m trans (ftm). but I’m 19 right now and still not sure and still in a lot of depression about it. I js want to put this aside whilst I go through college and my masters, take time to process my feelings and play with my gender identity in other ways, and then transition if it doesn’t help.

Because to be honest, in my country and my situation, transitioning is really really a last resort. Or will it just get worse and I should figure it out now. Because I’ve already spent my whole childhood and teenhood as a girl, I feel like I’m wasting my best years on this.

also in the meantime how do you distract yourself from gender dysphoria; obviously I know it can’t go away but I don’t want to be thinking about it all day every day.