I miss my ex

I miss you i know its been a long time but i just cant forget you. To me you were more than just my partner you were my best friend. When we broke up i legitimately feel like i lost a part of myself as cheesy as that sounds. But it felt like you moved on with the college life and even now i feel like i just cant let you go because to be honest our relationship felt like the last time i was actually happy accepted for who i am loved. You were someone i could always tell everything to someone i could actually have fun with and really laugh. You were so thoughtful cheerful beautiful and you made me genuinely cry tears of joy which i didnt think was even possible. Im in a relationship right now but im going through it nothing is right we always fight even when im right im wrong i feel trapped i dont feel accepted for who i am and yet i still try to be better and hang on because idk ig i feel like i didnt try enough for us when you brought up points about me about finding internships or a being more healthy and going to the gym i wish i took you more seriously maybe then we’d still be together

Well thats just me ranting im fully aware of myself and how messed up i am as well as what actions to take regarding my current relationship im just going through it rn its hella late for me and i just cant stop having these thoughts and i cant sleep

Good night i miss you xb