im so cooked i cant find no balance

my gp test is coming soon like this week and i feel like i havent even prepared for it. in fact i really havent even prepared for it. so far we only did like 1 practise essay and it aint even serious like we could surf online to look for examples and even that i flopped the practise so hard. theres rlly no quick fix to it right so just accept I'll fail soon🙏 and like lit gp is lwk testing me every single day i have time to rest idk whether to switch to reading straits times or my books(those are fiction btw) lwk pmo so bad, i cant even read my fanfics and horror books without feeling guilty. and how tf do ppl balance studying and friends like everytime i have those white space, its either i lock in and be a loser loner or hang out with gng and slack