I hate my dad

(Sorry for my bad english)

So I recently found out that my step mom (ill call her mom) and dad aren’t together anymore. My mom told me thru message (She’s an OFW in taiwan) and she apologized for not telling me sooner. I grew up with her around Junior High School until now and shed been treating me so nicely and like Im her own blood. She broke the news first that I wont be getting a graduation gift (A year ago she asked me what Graduation gift would I want and I requested a Gaming Laptop cuz I really like gaming and I get to use it in my upcoming college, she agreed to it)

Both of my half siblings got a gift except for me because dad told her not to get me one and its a waste of money. It broke me because I was waiting for that gift and I tried my best in school despite my difficulty in my mental health and dealing with family problems are home. She also told me that the most they argue about is because my dad hasnt done sht for me, doesn’t even have a job, no money, no dreams, no anything. My mom was the one whos been paying for my things and school and ask me to tell my dad which college i wanna go to in hopes of may be he might do something about it or get a job at least since im entering college. I was so disappointed with my dad, I see him differently now. I broke down crying and told my mom how disappointed I am of dad and how his been living knowing that mom is struggling overseas just to make money and because I deserve a graduation gift too but my dad refused to give me one….

Mom told me that I might not go to college because my dad aint doing sht. I told her that If i ever do go to college Ill work part time and by the time I get a laptop ill open art commissions again (I did that in the past when I had my old laptop but i had to sell it due to financial reasons) But right now, I really dont know what to do, im overwhelmed with emotions and resentment…