[M27] I'm involved with a married [F26] woman and I'm thinking it's not gonna go anywhere.

Before you judge by the title let me explain.

I M27 met her let's say A in 2023 in my job and we sat close together and got to talking and became friends. I had a crush on her from day 1 ngl but I never did anything about it because one I'm an introvert and two she was married already.

But soon we became friends and she used to tell me about how she liked my hair and that I worked out and stayed fit I never thought much about it but I liked it.

Soon she started talking about how I'm the only guy in her life who makes her laugh and how her husband is cheating on her openly with his ex gf but she can't do anything because no one supports her. (He apparently helped her family financially) I quietly supported her and didn't ask for anything in return.

But soon we started to meet out of work for coffee and dates or whatever. We've kissed a few times and sexted a bit. But we never slept together. She tried to suggest it especially when we're alone at my place or hers but it never felt right to me.

Around last year June or something she left our office but we kept in touch and started to meet outside every now and then. She got to talking about how she plans on leaving her husband soon. I never mentioned anything but I thought it would lead to something between us that's more solid and I thought we'd at least date seriously (ngl I was hoping to get married to her). I talked about it with her and she agreed back then that we'd become more serious about each other when she leaves her husband.

But since this year starting she was getting more and more distant and would make excuses about why she can't meet me if I ask her for coffee or if I tried to flirt over text she'd shoot it down or won't reply for long periods of time.

Last week I asked to meet and she said she can't because she's catching up on her favorite show.

I tried to ask her clearly what's going on and she said she's not in a right mental state to decide anything right now and started talking about how I'm the only one she can turn for support and I'm pressurising her. But she later texted me that she is thinking of giving her husband one last chance and that things are looking better between them.

I haven't talked or texted her since and she's been constantly texting me and talking about how she misses talking to me and all that. She even asked if I wanted to meet. I told her if she's giving her husband a chance why she wanted to meet me and she said she's worried about me and that she still thinks about us and how she feels happy with me and all. I didn't reply after that. (I wanted to reply but I controlled myself)

I don't know what to do. She's the only person I've been with or acted on my romantic feelings for.

I'm not experienced about all this so I don't know. I'm kinda guessing it's not gonna work out or whatever but idk what to do. I've been feeling super depressed. I've been pretty much a loner my whole life and super introverted so I feel like I've lost something real.

I don't even know what I'm asking for here. But I just don't know who I could talk to about this.

Tl;Dr - Got involved with a married woman who was being cheated on and I thought it would lead to something which it probably won't.