Looking for guidance on controlling and growing mediumship (feeling overwhelmed)

Looking for guidance on controlling mediumship (feeling overwhelmed)

Hi everyone, I’m looking for some guidance and thought this might be a good place to start.

A bit about me: my first experience with anything spiritual wasn’t great. I used to live in an apartment where there was a constant bad smell, and I always felt like I was being watched. The overall energy just felt really negative, and it honestly scared me.

After I moved out, things seemed to shift. I feel like my mediumship developed a lot—I started having very vivid dreams where people who have passed communicate with me. I can also feel spirits pretty often now… but the problem is, I can’t control it.

Yesterday was the first time it felt really intense—I couldn’t “turn it off” or tune it out, and it honestly scared me.

I’ve tried meditating, but sometimes when I do, I feel things like poking or touching sensations, which I really don’t like. It makes me hesitant to keep practicing, even though I do feel like this is something natural for me.

Also if I drink, that’s when I really get a flow of spirit communication coming in and it does not stop.

I guess I’m just feeling overwhelmed and a bit scared. I do appreciate this ability, but right now it feels really out of control.

Does anyone have advice on how to develop mediumship *with boundaries and control*? Or ways to feel safer while exploring this?

Any help or shared experiences would mean a lot. Thank you