Leaving at the end of the week

So, I have been in education for a while, and it has been a very bad fit. it’s kind of a long story. The short version is that I knew it wasn’t going to be a great fit but let family pressure influence my decision to get a teaching certificate (I totally own this decision, though, since I obviously could have chosen differently). I’m also trans. and my time in education seriously delayed transition (another long story). I have a lot of negative feelings and deep regrets surrounding my “career” as an educator.

The good news is that I have been accepted into a rad tech program. I’m very excited, although more than a little anxious.

i don’t know if this makes sense, but I’m trying to neutralize my feelings toward my education career. The school where I work doesn’t have the best morale, etc., but I just want to go out on the highest note possible, despite the environment.

Like, logically, I can look at my situation and say, I was under a lot of stress at the time I got my certificate. I can also look at the current school and admit that the chaos, the lack of support, etc., are hardly my issue.

But I still feel like my feelings toward my time in education show some sort of emotional immaturity on my part. And then when I tell myself that my feelings are valid, I’m filled with anger and sadness for letting myself choose this path in the first place.

i dunno, has anyone dealt with anything like this? if you have, how did you learn to forgive yourself and others?

TIA!