Beyond humiliated

My boyfriend for almost six years crossed the line. I’ve never been hurt or betrayed like this before. He’s telling me I’m taking it the wrong way, so let’s see what you think. He was talking to a porn star he thinks she likes him lol showing off on telegram sharing videos one with me the other, nobody cheated on me with. I am so hurt because I had a gastric sleeve surgery six years ago. I lost 180 pounds. Away from somewhere the 20s size pants to size 6 sometimes 8 triple X top to a small medium petite. I’m taking it the wrong way he says to talk his performance. Which is very short lived this is what he wrote to the woman:

Im an idiot. I could do it. Let me know if you saw them.

10:28 AM 4

Punk lol 10:29 AM M

yup saw it you?

you're not shy at all, are

10:33 AM

*I could do better lol that whale nut is my girl. The other is a girl I met on FB dtng. I walked into her house to 1st meet meet her. Within 7 minutes she was on her knees. Lol She was on her knees for 3 days lol

10:41 AM V

Has that

This underachiever claims he was not referring to me his girlfriend as a whale nut

But the dummy didn’t say he could do better and trust me he can’t six years hasn’t worked I supplied a job for him at home he hasn’t bought a bar soap for the house. He had it made. He should be calling anybody a whale he could swim the Pacific as well. I trusted this man forgave him for cheating I took care of him. You can’t even cut his own toenails. This is what I got. What do you think? Is he talking about me?