I called out today

After a 3 day bender and drinking at 2am to go to sleep I woke up and got ready for work. Like the whole 9, shower, clean clothes, makeup. Then I started driving to work. Decided I didnt want to go and am currently sitting at the boat landing in my town with a 12 pack. The biggest problem is im bored now. I cant go home because my partner will know I called out. Bigger problem is that now that I missed work I dont get paid for last Friday. I want to stop so bad.