Do you also have an experience of having been another person?

I’ve done so much shit and hurt the ones I love by lying and cheating, and I feel so horrible about myself at the moment. That I could do that to the ones that I love.

Like I was taken over by a monster, who didn’t care about a thing. One thing is the monster I’ve been when drinking, but then there’s also this weak person thats taken over been between drinking that led me to more drinking and more lying.

I’ve been sober now for 2 months, and I feel like I’m coming back to myself after going to treatment therapy that focuses on underlying issues and to AA meetings.

I know I have to do the 12 steps and eventually forgive myself, but how do you live with what you’ve done?

I still talk to my ex, because she wants to, and I’m also trying to give her her space to heal, but I also have a hope that she one day can forgive me all my bullshit.