realized my ex raped me.

Fuck. I met my first boyfriend in 2017. There were some issues but he was my first everything - kiss, date, sex, partner etc. It’s a long story, but we broke up because he also raped my fucking roommate of 2 years. What I did not realize until recently was that he raped me too, multiple times. I have experienced sexual assault both before and after him - once as a child, once while at work - but it just didn’t click that he did, too. 😞 I feel gross.