Never in my dreams I thought I would become a crap like this someday .

I wanted to be a doctor since class 6th and I was always the topper of my class . Life was going pretty good till 10th and even in starting of neet preparation (11th) , I use to get even 700+ continuously for so many tests . got so many medals too. but after some time I don't know what happened to me . I didn't used to understand things and also studied less. and messed up everything . everyone started hating me . literally the teachers who used to say she is god gifted , now ignored me or insult me . even my family used to hate me . my mom also got severe sick and my mental health got messed up , and i failed in neet with 12th . many of my friends who use to get less marks in mocks and many of them didn'teven wanted to become a doctor (were doing cause of family ) got selected . and they are now living their college life and here I'm reading PLANT KINGDOM. never thought my life would be like this . I wish i could live my life back then once more .now I feel so lost and an absolute looser who is lost somewhere. plzzzzz god I also deserve Healthy parents, peaceful life, friends and an MBBS degree. WHAT THE HELL I DID TO DESERVE ALL THIS . 😢 #pata hai aaj kya hua