To J

hey babe, i miss you today. ive been fluctuating between this and being bitter about all of it. your company on days on these would be great. but you dont want to be there for me anymore. you probably dont feel the same way anymore but youre still the one i want. youre still the one i want to protect and i want to protect what you want to protect. how are you? i really hope youve been well. all the guidance i have received is that i need to truly detach for a new future usbto be possible...but i cant. i keep foolishly imagining that you will reach out soon, that you will choose me again. im so dumb haha, of course youre not coming back, why would anyone right?