my gf writes this. she sends me her writing drafts. she drafted and saved with my name in her phone notes.

sometimes i feel like i need to get the exact life as i have imagined, not like running away or like getting pregnant before marriage. just me and what are all the things i like, the passion i have, the meaningful talk sometimes silence, yapping of tv and real dramas, mostly i want the man who do gives the testament to what that man will do for love, someone who matters me the most. i have a boyfriend who is different from me i fell in love with him, instantly. i thought i was in love with this person but only later realizing i'm falling in love with him and we talked, played, especially the silence i loved it the most. he's so different from me. mostly he is he just listens if i talk about things which i love and sometimes he won't feel the same way i felt and spoke. i felt comfort, more natural as me, but also fight, but he's not the man i dreamed of, but he is the man i want, he is the one i adore, i love , i trust . he never yelled at me and never raised his hand at me i know him for almost 4 years not even once he raised at me. i never met anyone like him and don't wish to. he's cynical and mostly a pain in the ass and but i love him totally. i love the things he love, i love his passion , i love his dreams, even i love to say things which make him to laugh, i repeat until i find new one everytime. he's impossible. he's an addiction but this thing you know i just said it's the thing i want really is also rare.