Problems with a friend

Hello there girls! I've been lurking around this sub for quite a while and I need advice about something.

A couple of months ago, I fell out with my closest friend, let's call her A. A and I were inseparable, and when we drifted apart everyone around us was confused.

We hadn't fought or anything, we just slowly stopped talking. We then reconnected after some time but we became friends with this other girl, B. A and B grew really close and I felt left out but didn't tell them since I am almost certain they had no idea I felt that way. They used to call every day, and keep talking for the entirety of that day. I've tried to connect with B on a deeper level, but it just hasn't worked out yet and I don't think it ever will.

After some time, A confided in me about something she'd been dealing with, but she wasn't ready to tell B. And suddenly, I was in the same position B was in, closer to A than the other person in the trio. A and I were really close again. A really appreciates calling others and so we were on call all day for pretty much a whole month. In this time we acknowledged that we shouldn't let B feel left out, and we tried our best not to.

A couple of weeks ago, Me and A fought over something stupid, although it was mostly my fault. I apologised and I thought everything was fine. However, she's back to being closer to B than me. I even had a really important exam today and none of them bothered to check in, which really hurt.

The strange thing is that I was praying the night before the night for god to remove anyone that doesn't have my best interest in mind from my life. I don't know if I'm overreacting or if it's actually a sign.

The problem is, I don't have other friends. I kept moving my entire life and was never able to establish any real friendships with people. Both A and B have big social circles on the other hand.

I feel left out, hurt and abandoned and I'm unsure what to do. If I distance myself people will talk and I will feel lonely in a way I'm not going to be able to handle.

Although I must mention, every time I speak and hang out with them I feel as if I am betraying God. They don't talk about guys and such but my heart feels heavy as if it is trying to warn me everytime we hang out.

Please do offer me some advice 🫶