Can somebody please please please please please help me reality check I don’t know what is real and I’m scared of my partner

Please please please please please please please we are leaving for a trip in two days and I am really scared but I thribk it’s just my ocd my friends are worried for me and asking me not to go but I think I lied to them and misrepresented the situation please please please if anyone can just help me figure out what seems real and what is my ocd I’m so scared. The OCD sub is not letting me post this because they think I’m reassurance seeking I’m really not I’m just scared and can’t tell whats real and Whats not