I struggle.

I have reached a point in my faith where it’s not about believing anymore. I flat out know there is a God. The problem is that my relationship with him is damaged. My life has had a very painful twist. Last October my brother took his own life. I’m still devastated. The days are returning to normal, but nothing is the same. My sins have grown my comfortable too. My addictions are spiking. It’s bad. I’m struggling bad. Please pray for me I desire a stronger connection with Jesus, but I’m absolutely terrified of God.