I’ve applied for hundreds of part time jobs. 15+ interviews. I never get the job. First time this has happened to me (usually within about 2 interviews I have a job)

Feeling so disheartened. Sorry in advance for whining. Just don’t know how to survive.

I am 30F, go to the interview freshly showered + good hygiene + light makeup, dress business casual, I’m open and honest (but not TOO open and honest as to be unprofessional), I have a decade long background in very stressful customer service situations.

Since I was young I have worked hotel front desk. A lot of this included running a few different hotels over the years during the afternoon to evening shift where I’m the only one on duty: checking people in, dealing with any issues that arise, being security/maintenance/laundry person rolled into one on top of that, generally running shifts alone with no backup in hotels that have 150-300 rooms. I also have a background in volunteering with food pantries and being a camp counselor each summer for kids with disabilities starting in summer 2014, I did it for around 5 or 6 years.

I’ve been told I’m charismatic and helpful and honestly I won’t lie, it’s never been hard for me to get a job. I am scared and lost at this point.

I cried most of today. I looked at how many jobs I’ve applied to since January on Indeed. It is a lot of times to be rejected. Don’t even wanna say the number.

Not being productive for months has me depressed. I have a small side hustle that gets me a bit of money as well as social security that covers my rent but that’s it. I’m an Utah transplant so maybe the culture is just different where I’m from interview wise and I didn’t consider that? But I feel like a failure.

My resume is very well done; I’ve spent a lot of time on it and even had an expert look it over (resumes are actually part of my little side business).

I do have a disability and can only work part time but I am a hard worker and thrive on productivity. I feel like being honest when I check “yes I am disabled” on the applications is probably getting me vetoed from some of these jobs (that don’t even require heavy lifting etc).

My savings is officially empty now too, just from paying bills and buying simple groceries as well as a vet bill.

Thoughts? Commiserations? This is just brutal.