I hate being a floater friend

Being who I am makes making friends suck, people in my classes talk to me but it eats me everyday knowing it's just cuz I'm good at math and they want answers or such. I'm just someone for a class no person would ever hang out with me when you aren't being forced. I like the same things as them same media I feel like that meme of the baby being held up by their mom in water while another kid next to her is drowning next to her. I'm only there never included, one of the few people who talks to me said something like "online friends>>" biggest f you ever, everyone says "oh we need to play together some time (on the game)" and then never hit me up. I never realized how lonely I am until I stopped texting first there are no "gaming nights with the boys" js the music of my Spotify playing while I run ck3 for the 100000000 time.

I wish I had huge friend groups and people to check on you, or even a real best friend (all my friends all closer friends) and now even people who talk to me are starting to close off this might be it for my social life all cuz of things I can't control.