Anyone else overthink? I feel like I suck

I’ve been using tarot on and off for about 5 ish years now. I’ve gotten back into it recently and I’ve been trying to get some “gossip” about my workplace just so I can work on my intuition and interpretation skills and honestly I feel like I suck. I get vague ideas, but they’re surface level and mostly based on me interpreting from the guidebook, so in the end it feels like I’m making up scenarios or projecting. I don’t know how to work on my intuition abilities. I saw a more detailed guide on tarot which I found helpful but I still feel stuck and like I have a foggy picture of the answers I seek everytime I try.

And I can’t help but overthink when I’m shuffling my cards because often multiple will fall out or maybe one. I’m like should I count it as valid? I don’t know.