Is it bad to want to be the favorite ?

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Is it bad to want to be the favorite? I don't know why but I always feel like a second choice like their will always be someone better than me. I have two CGS and one has multiple little while my other only has me. I like them both a lot. they are super sweet but I don't feel loved with either of them cause of this favorite thing I need.

I don't feel loved with the one with multiple littles cause I'm not a favorite and I don't feel loved with the other cause I'm the only one and that he only says I'm the best cause there's no one else to compare me to. I feel like it's really selfish cause I don't want the others to feel bad cause I'm the favorite but it's weird. I just want to be picked to be first for once. What should I do? I want to silence this feeling without hurting anyone else or even get rid of it