29 [M4M/TF] New York/Online - looking for discreet twinky, nerdy, feminine friend but with the benefits

Heyyo. Basically I am attracted to male genitals but not masculine features. This includes femboys, twinks, and transgenders. Very into nerdy types too and people who are into long chats and long-term dynamics. Been looking for a long time and it feels like no one wants that but am still looking but still looking because of how bad I want it. Seeking someone who wants to be friends first and benefits second. Trying to build a connection that is fun and sexual but lasts. On the sexual side I am pretty kinky and versatile but more on the bottom side and like a strong dose of affection and intimacy like cuddling. Really want to find something that causes butterflies. If you are versatile that is awesome but even better if you are vers-top. Only for people who are serious for this and do not do things like ghost. Also I am a sensitive soul and looking for someone who will nurture that not crush it