I can’t emotionally bring myself to finish assassins blade because of Sam

I’ve read the entire series with assassins blade last. I’m about 90% through and I don’t know if I can bring myself to finish it, knowing what happens to Sam and then Celena/Aelin.

I think a) having read assassins blade now and getting to see his character, his hopes and dreams, his back story and his wonderful puppy love for her, it’s actually devastating to know he meets such a violent end. He really doesn’t deserve it and it just feels.. hard to read?

And b) knowing how much loss she goes through, throughout the series and being privy to a major one and where the whole journey begins essentially. It’s a double, triple, quadroupal whammy.

The series has been amazing and other deaths have been sad and emotional but I just don’t know if I can do it. This has literally never happened to me before 😂 not sure if it’s because I’m a mum now to a son and Sam is so so young or what but it’s killing me 😂😭