I don’t know what it is, but I constantly have a crush on someone. I don’t need to be in a relationship all of the time, I certainly don’t really want one right now. But I still constantly have someone on my mind. I stop thinking about one person (i’m slow to get over certain relationships regardless of relationship length), another crush almost immediately creeps up. 

Maybe I love flirting? Maybe the attention? I don’t know what it is. 

Worse off, I always crush on people I can’t have. I can never let it go. Sometimes I feel like I’m hooked on them because they are hurting my ego SO bad and I’m just trying to prove something to myself. I don’t know what it is. 

I want to stop being into this guy. 

He texts me once a fucking day. I don’t think he’s so busy that he can’t text me back. I’m a bigger fool for even responding, but I convince myself maybe it’s his normal rhythm? It’s been going on for a month. If he didn’t like me, wouldn’t he have stopped texting me already? I hate myself for accepting this because I COULD EASILY HAVE BETTER!! I need to STOP thinking about how handsome he is. I should stop texting him. There is no reason for this. 

how do you get over a crush like a normal person? Lavender Matcha and Pain Au Chocolat