i just feel so unsure?!!

i’m F21 and have been dating my M22 boyfriend for over a year now. we are amazing together and it is the healthiest, best relationship i’ve ever had. i couldn’t imagine not being with him. important note is that i am my boyfriends first girlfriend i’ve been in a few relationships in the past and i’ve always found myself getting extremely antsy and kind of tired of the guy once it hits like 7+ months. i usually break up with my boyfriends and then find myself regretting it immediately and for months after.

i do not want to break up with my boyfriend at all but i can sense myself hitting that weird timeline point and i hate the feeling so much, but it feels so heavy, like a “you need to abort” feeling, veryyyyyy self sabotaging.

i know i definitely have some commitment issues— but i often hear my boyfriend say things like “i am his person” and that “we are going to be together forever”. i don’t disagree with the statements, but we are also so young, and i find it hard saying those things back

i honestly don’t even know what advice im asking for bc im such a mess but i guess if yall got anything…?