Why am I obsessed with Scorpio women and why they eventually leave me, despite also liking me in terms of physical and character?

For some reason, they are the only type I truly find authentic, exotic, mystical, and whimsical. As a neurodivergent Leo man, I cannot find most women interesting. They are pretty normie to my taste. Maybe I talk like this because I deeply loved someone, and after the failure of the affair, I cannot find others attractive enough for marriage. As a religious person, I'm also staying away from degenerate forms of dating, such as short-term and etc.