Dad took his life

Like the title says- about two weeks ago, and idk how to deal with it.

I feel numb- but having to still do work so I can help my mom as needed. People are pissing me off for doing nothing. Don’t want to talk to people about it because they don’t get it. Just regretting so many choices over the last few years now.

Idk what to do. I’m quiet around people but just want him to be back