DAE have this feeling?

I once said to my old therapist that in relationships I feel like I’m a kid in a dark room screaming and no one comes. Since then, I’ve left my therapist (who made me feel the same way) and thought further about the analogy and was wondering if anyone else has a similar experience. I’m stuck in a room, it’s dark and I’m small and I have my hands over my ears and I’m rocking back and forth crying and screaming for help. There’s chains on my wrists and ankles. I can see the warm light underneath the door and hear voices and laughter, yet still no one comes. I’m an adult now, and I’m still stuck in this room. I’m ashamed. My ex told me I’m a “void” and a “black hole” and that has haunted me. Please tell me if you have a similar experience, his words have haunted me. He was a good person, a normal person, and I just feel inherently defective hearing him say that. Like nothing is ever enough, nothing will get me out of that room.

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