Bruv I’m so obsessed with ts guy helppp

Ok, so I (13f) have had a HUUUGE crush on this guy for a long time. Since about 2/5 into the school year I’ve been obsessing over this one guy (12m). Let’s call him brussel sprout. So brussel sprout is around maybe 5’1, he has blonde hair, blue eyes, just an overall cutie. But he’s also a total incel. He is a racist, sexist, pos. But I (for some unexplainable reason) love him sooo much. Me and him had a good relationship for most of the year until when I actually started crushing on him I kept giggling at his stupid jokes, kinda flirting with him. Yk. And my friend, (let’s call her cat) finally convinced me to confess to him. So I did. And his reaction.. ugh. He put his hand up to his head in the shape of a gun. Pretended to shoot himself, then got up and fucking LAUGHED at his OWN JOKE!!!!!!!! Anyway, he gave me the cold shoulder for like a week, then I apologized to him and told him I just wanna hang out with him as a friend. And he started texting me again and hanging out with me more. And he gave me SUCH mixed signals like biitttcchhhh??? Like, I had a sleepover with my friend (she lives VERY close to him) and we called him to see if he wanted to go to a store with us and he obviously being the fat chud he is said no. My friend said “Oh but (me) got her hair curled and she looks sooo pretty!!” And he said “mhm” but like in a certain way. Not in the “mhm, sure” but like “obviously” kinda mhm. (I’m so delulu) As well as that he was letting me look through his texts with a friend to prove that the friend was strange. When I gave him his phone back he touched my hand for a UNNECESSARY amount of time (marry meee) BUT THAN! Later! We were all hanging out, and my friends little brother was there 8m and brussel sprout started bragging about rejecting me in front of my fucking face! Anyway, I sent him a buncha paragraphs and now I think he blocked me. Anyone have any advice? Should I talk to him after spring break?