I feel lost 🥀

I wasted my offline coaching in 11th and 12th. left coaching mid 12th along with my jee prep . regretted a lot and went into depression. somehow studied for boards (80+). in these 6 months I lost all the confidence I had. everyone around me tells me that I am way more capable then I think and that I can crack any exam I put my mind to . I don't know what to do now . I have no goal because whatever I think of I feel I will fail in that . I think I am incompetent to build a career . most of the time I feel like doing nothing. I don't scroll on the phone either it's just I don't know where my time goes . every second is tough for me to live . I don't have any friends.

I planned to take drop for jee a few days ago but I can't take offline coaching ( not money issue just parents won't agree at any case) . but I don't know how to handle online coaching 🥀 because I won't know what to do next. it's not i can't do something even I know I am good in studies it's just I am lost .

what should I do . I can't end up unemployed nor can I find other career options for me 😔.

guys please if you can please help me out 🙏 🙏