I love older woman and I cannot pretend anymore

I have no mouth and I must scream, that is the level of agony I feel when I’m unable to seize the opportunity to announce my true feelings of love for older women.

I’m 19, lesbian and the place I live in doesn’t host a big enough community for me to find an older woman to properly show my love towards. I’ve tried to peek my interest into woman my age, even tried a man once… but nothing will give me the thrill an older woman does.

I refuse to give up my virginity unless it is to an older woman. And one day when the flowers bloom across the fields and the sun sets at the perfect moment where it hits my eyes and shows its true colours. I to will show my true colours at family Christmas dinner and announce that, me yes I do not wish to hold the hand of an adult woman my age, but an adult woman twice my age.

Socially it may not be acceptable to some, but as long as it brings no harm I don’t see why I cannot gift the flowers from said field to an older woman as I would one my age.