Im completely stuck

M20. I have pretty much no friends anymore, no girlfriend, no hobbies, no school and no work. All i do now is lay down and do jackshit, make youtube videos sometimes and walk around outside. I rarely even leave my part of city. I will also have to do most likely one year or atleast 6 months of mandatory military service starting in around 3 months which before i was pretty positive about but now it feels like even more weight on me.

I have never been that good at making new friends and since all my old friends have faded me away slowly without an explanation i find myself, well.. pretty lonely. I find myself more and more being melancholic and wishing for the past so i could make my mistakes right and for a better global situation so i could be young without an existential threath or isolation for once. Im battling with my mind every day

I hope i won't go mad from this since it has continued for quite a bit. I want to do somehing about this but usually i just dont have the drive to and i feel like a failure

I don't know what the point of this post was or if anyone will even read this fully but might aswell post. I also made a new reddit account for this just for privacy reasons.