Help it's personal

Help it's personal

a guy said he likes me and i accepted cz he seemed genuine and sweet and I was 17, when I turned 18 he started bringing up adult needs and stuff and I did all I could, but when i turned 19 he wanted to fuck and I said let me grow up a little more and he said he can't wait and will i not marry him as I am rejecting, he made it seem like I am saving up my virginity for someone else, he started dating another girl but I felt so remorseful that I convinced him that wait atleast 3 years for me and he said ok, then he said no he can't and i said let me be 20 atleast. he said alr again and then again soon after said no he wants it before 3 months( december) or he is leaving as he thinks I am not serious enough to fuck him and make this relationship strong so I agreed and it happened now we were in ldr due to college reasons but we fuck almost monthly 2 times and if I am on my periods then bjs... then came his bday and i spent 3k on him giving shirt,watch, chocolate bouquet handmade, perfume, cake and stuff... then it was all fun and came my bday...it was on 5th april... he broke up with me on 27th with no reason... after trying a lot to contact.. I got to know the reason was " he wants to fuck around and explore different girls"... i was devastated hearing that and asked him to meet one last time today... he fucked me again today between tears of separation and flow... then i opened in phone's gallery and saw he has been talking to someone since 24th of March.. (broke up with me on 27th) and I even asked him before fucking today that did u do anything with anyone and he said no... I saw vids of them fucking, kiss marks on his chest, pressing boobs in his rent room and stuff i cried so much everyone will say just move on but I fucking can't help please give your point of view he even said he loves me more than her and I can stay secretly