Confession.

I have a confession to make. queer f30..

I am actually in a monogamous relationship with a trans man. I always said I was pansexual with a little bit more leaning on the feminine side.

My boyfriend said to be genderfluid but I've been with him for 1year+ and never seen him express feminity. And I knew him before transition, he likes to do makeup he just doesn't have the motivation anymore.

I don't know how to talk to him about it, without him feeling getting dysphoria about it or feel bad! I'm scared of that.

I crave feminity... I crave flirting with women, feminine or queer people. I crave being flirted at...

I don't know if it's me being neglected by him (and I do mean the flirting and everything, not the feminity....) but I don't know what it is, in masculinity that feels less genuine, less romantic... less sexy.

I DON'T KNOW. I have been questioning all my life even past 30.

Am I alone feeling like a woman, or queer people, knows how to seduce better?

I'm craving it so much...

I have been dating women before, and queer people. I have dated a lot of variety of people actually.. But something just isn't right atm.

I don't know. With him there's barely no seduction he doesn't lead anything, the first thing he thinks about when I wanna get hot is to bang me with a strap-on.

I don't know, I'm bored out of my mind.

No glitter magic, only Fortnite and horror movies.....

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I've barely had motivation for a poem in a year now.