Very dark story, read at your own risk

I’m hoping femboys are accepted here too cause I’ve never found a sub that felt like home. For context I’m 5’6 and weigh about 48kgs(100lbs or so) and I’m mixed race (parts Korean, Indian and Nigerian).

When I was 18 I moved to the uk for uni and stayed with a roommate who was built honestly like a Viking. Played rugby, Caucasian, 6’4 ish and quite bulky and muscly, dark green eyes with blonde hair but tbh not very handsome lol. Which is probably why he did what he did and I’m thankful af for what he did cause it honestly opened my eyes.

My first weekend with him he came back home drunk and while I was sleeping he pulled off my pants and I woke up to being split open by his very thick 8.5 inch cock(I’d know, I spent years familiarising myself with it hehe). Me moving from a 3rd world country and coming from a strict religious background I believed I was straight my whole life and loved women so naturally I tried screaming and fighting him which seemed futile. He didn’t stop till he came almost 3 times in me and each one lasted longer the next. What hurt and confused me the most was that I came with him… He degraded me and made fun of me while he did it but it only seemed to arouse me more…

After a weeks I went along with it willingly and for 3 glorious years I was his pet, he taught me a lot of kinks like race play, piss and public play to name a few and honestly I’m pretty sure I ended up loving my rapist as fucked up as it sounds. If you’ve read all this way thank you so much and if you wanna know more, well I’m an open book hehe❤️💕