Feels like life is passing by

Good evening everyone. Hope y’all doing good. I’m 25 years old living in Canada, big geek always been interested in politics, sports. Been working as a waiter in french bistro for the past 3 years. Still I never had it you know, genuine driving force toward a field, something that would deeply wired me toward a precise goal. These questions were rolling arround me but I just started to address them when my 4 years old relationship just ended a couple of month ago. To be honnest, Im having a kind of existential crisis with common suicidal thought. Just wanted to know if any of you experimented something similar.

Sorry for the english mistakes thats my second langage and trying my best. Peace