Anyone who didn't get over gender disappointment right away?

I want a girl so bad. every time I think about not having a girl I want to cry my eyes out. sometimes I imagine myself having a boy and being happy about it but it feels so fake. I also know that I will never do this again. I know other people get upset but less so because its not their last shot but I don't want to ever be pregnant again. my partner also have a boy and a girl from a previous relationship so Im even more unsure lol

also another factor is if I ever end up a single parent I would feel way less bad about it if I was a single mom with a daughter as opposed to a son.