School

i dont even know where to start im just tired of this college life. I am not smart enough for this i tried hard to study just for me to fail a semester i was crying non stop every week and felt so scared to tell my mother i failed and im so guilty about it bc we are not financially stable so all i can do is cry and tell her after i tell of course i already expect the worse she scold me told me that she is tired of working just for me to fail this semester and compare me to other smart kids bragging that they have honors while i dont, And now i have other semester subject that giving me a hard time i feel like im failing and no matter how hard i try i just cant passed it just taking about failing again make me sick like all that sleepless night just to fail because all of this my FIRST time failing through my WHOLE school life i dont know i just want to drop out, i love my course and i wanna learn more but i think im just not smart enough to passed.