Why do I still love you

its a weird state of mind im in . its been 2 months since you broke up with me . I thought I would be over it by now or atleast hoped I would be . I keep myself busy the whole but there are quiet moments in the day when you slip into my head and the feeling of wanting to be in arms or just wanting to be back in bed with you scrolling through tiktok doing stupid quizzes , I miss that so much . it was those moment that was just us being stupid and in love in the simplest way. I miss your smile . I miss your laugh . I miss your eyes and looking at eyelashes . I miss the way you made me laugh . I miss how your hand fit perfectly in mine like it was meant to be . I dnt understand why I miss this after all the pain you caused me . the simple text that broke us. the silence almost immediately. the no explanation. how can I still love after that . 2 month of pain . 2 months of longing. 2 months of feeling lost . and all cause I love you with all my heart . I cant imagine loving someone . I cant imagine giving myself to someone like I did you. Just the thought of it makes me sick .I wish I could wake up from this nightmare. I wish the was all just a nightmare or some really lame prank .

its so weird because people will ask me would you go back to him after everything his done and without hesitation I say yes . because the love I hold for you is so profound . its in my blood . its in my bones . its in my heart . ive never loved someone like I love you .

maybe you were my soul mate but who know cause you left me .

there's just so many questions running in my head that start with why?

I love you j green

yours truly L