I feel so lonely

I don’t know what happened to me. I don’t know what i did. Every single friend I’ve ever had has left me or has made other friends. I saw this reel about people saying that you’re a red flag if you don’t have any friendships and my heart just broke.

I tried so hard to keep my friends I tried hard to make new ones when they left.

I am very self aware of what i do. I have messed up only 2 friendships in my life, and i take accountability for that. One was in 10th and one was a few years ago.

I lost my best friend in college and along with that my entire friend group. It took me a while to trust people in college again , and when I finally did , I became friends with these 2 girls. I was the one holding the group together because the 2 would say weird things about the other to me. And now, the two of them are friends and I’ve cut them off.

I don’t think I’ve ever felt this alone in my life. I’m going to become a doctor at the end of the month by the way, and there’s no one who’s sharing that happiness with me.

I don’t talk to anyone in college.

I come from a family of doctors, they have said “Arey this is nothing, wait for pg”

My younger siblings are so cool and so busy in their own lives

I don’t know what to do. I’m 23, how do you even make more friends now? Everyone i seem to talk to is best friends with someone from school or is best friends that they talk shit about.

I see everyone in my batch in groups, partying, meeting up and i feel so scared that this is my life. That this is who i am now and that this is how it will be forever.

I don’t know what to do. I’ve never felt so alone, scared and just done.

I lost myself. My skin has gone bad, i put on weight, i lost my hair and all the friends i lost have become hotter suddenly.

I don’t know if it’s genuinely something I’ve done knowingly or unknowingly but I don’t want to live like this anymore.