i suddenly feel like my world is all gray

I am so obsessed with love and my current lack of it. it is kind of consuming everything i do. I am aware that i am addicted to the dopamine i get from feeling smitten by a person. But no matter what i do, i just want to see my object of desire, talk to them, everything. Like i say affirmations, burn incense, try to visualize and manifest but i feel so hopeless. And if i dont hear from or see this person ever again, i fear i will never have this love connection feeling ever again. im on dating apps, go out w friends but all i want and hope for is to see him. This is not an unfamiliar feeling, but for some reason it feels like im spent. I cant even be excited about hanging with my friends or the next concert. I dont know, im in my late 40's, maybe it's perimenopause blues but it sucks and is affecting all areas of my life.