I've hit a point where I don't end it only because my loved ones would be hurt

Sooo I have a hard history of dating with lot's of hurt feelings, cheating and lies. And after a long time of not dating at all I finally found a women I was ready to try again with. The time was great, the dates were unique and I fell for her in a matter of weeks. It was a few days ago when she told me that she doesn't want a relationship at the moment to see how life single is because her last break up still hangs on her feet.

I fell deeply for her and I had so much hope that we would become a couple that I don't see someone else in my life again. She was all I ever wanted from a woman. And as of now I feel like I will compare any other women to her. That makes my love life redundant now as there won't be any other possibility for me to be happy in love again. That is such a big part of my life that it makes me feel like living is not worth at all rn.

But my only anchor rn is my family and loved ones. The'd be hurt. And I don't want that. So I've got to live with that for now and hope to somehow find a way.