I feel really bad

I know I made frequent posts on a lot of subreddits and I’m sorry for the spam, I really want to find a sheikh that I can personally talk to and learn from but I haven’t. I like praying but I make it complicated for myself, I just scroll looking at fatwas and religious videos and find out that I haven’t been doing something right and then I’m just anxious. I feel bad because I want to balance my faith as well as spending time with family, I always neglect spending time with my family at times because I’m anxious thinking about if I have to repeat prayer or if I’m not following the sunnah, etc. I spend time with them, and then out of nowhere I worry about something and I feel horrible because I really want to spend time with my family as well. I’m not sure what to do, I keep rushing into things and I don’t know how to stop. I don’t know what I should focus on first instead of rushing into things ever since I started to want to be better at my faith.