Are people talking about me?

I don’t know if I’m schizophrenic and I sincerely hope people just like to talk shit about me. I have a family history (aunt, uncle, cousin and grandfather) of schizophrenia. I never had these paranoid issues, but I have been smoking weed for 7 years now (so did my uncle before he was diagnosed). And since last year when my father passed away suddenly, the paranoia has become worse and worse. Though I have been sober for a week, the feeling doesn’t pass.

I also have a bad reputation in my town because I treated my girlfriends badly and I have anger issues. Often I feel like I hear people pass my apartment talking about me and when I go to the window to check it out I either see no one, or once heard someone commenting “oh he can actually hear us”. Or “look he’s watching”. I’m afraid to look outside and be judged for being

paranoid or nosy.

There’s also groups of teens hanging around my area and once I went to the bar with my mom and when we left they were chilling next to my car. Not sure if that was intentional. People always seem to stare at me. I live on the 4th floor but when I go outside I can clearly see into my apartment. I’m scared people might hear me from outside, or my games, shows, music. I just wonder why people would bother to check what I’m doing all day?

I don’t know what to do, anyone please give me advice. I’m really scared I might be going insane, or worse, everyone is actually against me.