So when does it get better?

I feel like every single part of my body is just incompatible with being able to transition well

I tried dressing fem yesterday, usually i dress tomboyish to try and push the boymoding as far as i can without feeling shit about it, but then i saw myself in my phone camera and i felt so fucking shit because of it, theres not a single part of myself that i would say has potential and i feel like a complete failure

Ive been on hrt for 2 years but because my bone structures so masculine its not done jack shit, im terrified that i wont pass until im like 50, because i genuinely have no motivation in life past being a girl and i have absolutely no sense of self esteem or pride in myself and i dont know how much longer i can go on with this

I feel like all of my friends are pretending to have faith in me and i feel like im completely unloveable because i genuinely feel like my body is disgusting and i’d never subject someone to that

Im trying to save up for ffs but im fucking terrified that i’ll still look like a complete brick afterwards