I feel like giving up

Background: after taking a round of Keflex antibiotic in April of 2025, I developed red, raw vulvar skin with mild yeast symptoms. I used a few different antifungals but the skin never fully healed. The friction of everyday living caused a small tear in the skin and now I have persistent dermatitis, red skin in between the labia majora and minora, as well as a deep red/purple demarcation line down the side of each fold. It is painful and I cannot walk around or work without using zinc oxide cream during the day. Absolutely no internal symptoms

I’ve been to 3 doctors about this, one completely brushed me off, the second gave me betamethasone and Clobetasol (both made things worse), the third (not an OBGYN) gave me compounded estriol with Ellage which hasn’t really helped, and when I raise the dosage it causes pain and itching.

Today I called a vulvar clinic near where I live when I got a referral and found out there’s a 9 month wait. I couldn’t believe it. I’m currently in between jobs as I’m studying to take a board exam for my field of work before I can start my career. This is the most traumatic thing I’ve ever been through. I can’t exercise so I’m gaining weight, I wake up every morning in distress. I want to live so badly but I feel like my life is over. It’s been a year of horror. I don’t even know what to do anymore. I’m devastated.