Something I've been struggling with is if I am a bad person or not because I don't try harder to understand people.

With a lot of effort I can figure stuff out but it may take me time and it feels completely unnatural. I also have a hard time not yapping when I get excited. I don't intend harm at all but wonder if I am just a bad person for not trying harder. For most of my life I would try so hard and it allowed me to pass fine but didn't mean people liked me. They would still think I was off even with all of that masking. Not having such a heavy filter on all the times has been such a blessing for my own well being and mental health. People who don't like me I just avoid and then that eliminates the issues faced by both of us.

But I still wonder if I am bad because I can figure stuff out to an extent it just is so incredibly taxing that it makes my life miserable.