I can’t deal with this anymore.

In a relationship 20 years, 3 kids he had an affair and is still with her except he has texted me almost daily sometimes being nice sometimes being horrible- we have split for 6 months. I recently found out he was with affair partner and went no contact that was nearly 3 weeks ago.

I had 2 missed calls from no caller id the other night but that’s been it.

I can’t stop replaying everything in my head all day all night. I can’t sleep, eat or even function. I don’t know how long I can carry on like this.

In hindsight I wish I went no contact 6 months ago but kept communication open due to the children but he has let them down now and they don’t want anything to do with him.

What can I do!