Had a pretty steamy dream which is rare for me… what does it mean

So pretty much last night I don’t know why, but I had this kind of crazy dream in which I got with two people. One of them was a girl and it was just kind of romantic like it was like kissing and it kind of got elevated from there and it was just very intimate (we ended up eating out each other), which is kind of wild because I consider myself straight and then the other part of a dream I like went to shower and a man was there and we started kissing and obviously there was no clothes and like I could feel everything and it was just so vivid and it’s weird and I woke up so confused because I never have these Dreams!

When I say vivid, I mean it felt like I was there like every sensation and oh my gosh… I really liked it……. I haven’t felt a p**** in abut a year and tbh I don’t find myself craving it too much, I’ve always found myself to be less sex centered compared to the people I know and don’t watch porn or even enjoy conversations about people’s sex lives, I find it uncomfortable and uninteresting hahaha

Not coming from a conservative or religious point of view is just I’ve always kind of been like that, for example I didn’t lose my virginity until I was in my 20s and even then it’s not because I was dying for it but because I felt like I was ready to have that experience, I’ve done other things and I do enjoy it but it’s not like I’m living and breathing for it. I think it’s because I have a lot of interests and I am in a pretty high achieving career right now. I’m working really hard toward some things so I’ve been pretty busy and honestly a relationship is kind of the last thing on my mind and the thought of doing something with someone is definitely not at the forefront of my mind. I kind of consider myself like Bernard if you’ve ever read brave New World hahaha

But not gonna lie this dream kind of shook something inside me…. Like I really want to have that shower experience lol… im definitely into guys and If I may be so bold, love how a p**** feels in my hands, is this my body trying to say something??also scared of stds so not trying to do anything with a stranger and I like the intimacy of having a physical connection with someone, I don’t think of doing sexy stuff as purely physical, I truly find it a beautiful and spiritual experience to let yourself be vulnerable like that with someone… anyways dont have many people I feel ok talking abt this with and im just so confused by the dream because it’s almost as if I wasn’t myself, I was this kind of very open and sexy and flirty person, I almost felt like I was a man if that makes sense…

Tbh im worried of even getting physical with someone now, it just seems so risky?? So vulnerable and weird

For context, as I may humbly say so myself, I consider myself attractive and from feedback from the outside world, I think people agree… hahaha Im also pretty intelligent and idk if it’s because I have a lot of things going on, I just don’t get the caveman instinct of sex sex sex and that’s all that matters in life… but now I’m like or am I the weirdo idk !!! Should I be thinking of this more?

On the other hand the career I have requires of a lot of poise, discretion and professionalism, it is a career in which you really can’t act out of line and I even worry about posting certain things of fear of getting seen as not respectable since my career holds a high moral standing in society… is this dream actually signaling a deep desire to do whatever I want without a care if how im perceived? To do something for pure pleasure and instant gratification