i regret loving you

I really need to tell you what you did to me was so cruel and no one has been so bad or so disrespectful to me ever. you've killed me as a person. I've never ever regretted anything in my life i always looked up to things as a lesson but you i regret i regret every single min i've spent with you i regret it. the disrespect the humiliating feeling you gave me is so bad idts i can ever trust anyone or even be the same hopeful person I was and the worse part our last conversation was so disrespectful you forced me to forgive you but i don't i will never ever forgive you for what you did to me you not only betrayed me you killed me as a person I'm scared to even get out of house these days the amount of trauma you've given me and I've never seen a selfish and so mean person like you. you wanted me to forgive you without you actually owning what you did to me was cruel and brutal and on top of all this it was unnecessary but i trusted you, i loved you you gave me so many hopes how could you do this to me? i will never forgive you i might have said but i don't and i hope the guilt always eats you of what you did to me was wrong. I hope it always acts as a reminder of how you should treat people and how important kindness is and how cheating is always intentional and never a mistake you didn't even deserve a single amount of love attention or care i had towards you and i hate myself for even giving so much of me to you. you didn't deserve it.